My World

I am in my cluttered bedroom of my parents' house, the soft sunlight of the summer evening streaming in through my window, the birds singing their choruses outside. I sit on the grey carpet in front of the broken mirror of my shallow closet. I stare at myself as if trying to see something. As if trying to see if I can become the next Elinore Roosevelt or Marilyn Monroe, Marie Curie or Emily Dickinson, or even "Baby Spice" of the Spice Girls. Will I discover something amazing? Will I accomplish my dream of becoming immortalized in this world through the words I speak or actions I take?

I study the soft, young lines of my face, the shortness of my blond hair, the mix of blue and green in my eyes. Who will I become as this year goes on? Who will I be in five years? Ten years? Or a better question...who am I now? What value do I have in this world?

Why am I asking these questions to people I hardly know? To a blog on a database I just became aware of? Should these questions be for my own mind rather than your's?

Well...yeah.

They are my questions to myself, however they should be everyone else's as well. At least, it is my hope that everyone else shares the same wonders.

I hope my own journey to that psychologist-proclaimed "Self Discovery" Will help some of you out there. You may not be female or even around my age but I believe we can learn things about ourselves through those younger or older, male or female (or other), or even people of different personalities all together (Which is, you know, everyone). I would be satisfied if this "journal" only spurred questions, not even answers. I just want those around to learn from me. Of me. I want to know of you as well. I have the urge to know more and more about you if you'll help me.

Thank you for reading and keep up with me as I let you into my world. As I let you into the mind of a 19 year old college student with a love for people and a totally different outlook. Please ask me questions, give me suggestions, talk with me. I want to hear from you.